a few moments from our trip. it's been a long-harbored dream of mine to go to japan; i don't know how much longer we'll be living on the west coast, so it seemed like a good idea to explore that part of the world now, while it's relatively easy to get there. it was really something. tokyo can be both an overwhelming assault on the senses and a place of gentle quiet, coziness and magic. walking through peaceful residential neighborhoods, past worn but lovingly cared for homes, i knew that my younger self would long to live there. but then i thought of tove jansson's words: "you can't ever be really free if you admire somebody too much," and realized that at 30, i am happy to take in all this beauty and learn what it has to teach me but not idealize it too much. there are wonderful things here, and not-so-wonderful things, just like everywhere else. instead of being disappointing it was a freeing, grown-up feeling and i felt lighter for it. i hope to return someday soon.